I wake up every morning bright and early roll out of bed but I'm never quite alone, their hunger for the living helps them hunt it with the greatest of ease. And I don't understand why they justify iniquity. But what if I changed the signs would you even take notice? Why is there no reason that time and time again you'll think about yourself before you think about me? I sit in traffic every morning just as i arrive I'm slaving to the grind and punch through the wall as I break my fist. All alone and I can't fell no pain, only strain. Enjoy the sights, I feel alive, just relaxing here feels alright with the warming memory of the one last kiss.

I managed to make a somewhat understandable paragraph out of about 10 different song lyrics!

But yea if you can make it out that a basic version of how I feel, presented in the form of lyrics which are the biggest outlet of feelings ever. I figured it'd be more interesting than just writing them out like everyone else. That is mainly the only thing we use the blogs for lol.

Well our first ever band practice was actually amazing. Lay Down sounds great and we pretty much wrote a whole original in about 1 hour, so that was definitely a win. The original sounds amazing too, its just so fucking awesome. Everyone loves it too it's so sweet. So yea if we keep up like this we'll have probably 2-3 orginals and 4 or so good covers in a month and we'll start playing some shows!!! We already have that one song as an original, and unfinished one that needs touch ups and a hilarious extremely happy riff dylan wrote that we thought would actually make an incredible screamo chorus. So there that's 3 originals to be touched up and need vocals. So everyone was hoping to get the song we wrote last practice finished and have a rough first version demo sort of thing recorded during the week through an actually audio jack so we can get some good quality recordings. But yea hopefully we'll be playing our first show in about a month and if all of our songs sound as awesome as this one we'll be playing big shows fast!

Yea, well I've come to the same conclusion as everyone else. There's really nothing left to say on these things. Well i guess i could talk about my day haha. Well i woke up and had some life cereal, two bowls. Showed up at school knowing that Max and Mark were bound to skip after only one day back from the break. They did. So yea I spent the first 2 blocks and finished planning and hung out with Megan. She's a pretty depressing person right now, not happy with losing Itay. So i pretty much just talked to Erin and Kitty 2nd block. Her name is actually Kitty, it's pretty sweet and shes really into art and music so she's my asian buddy now lol. 3rd block was lame with mcilroy, hung out with mitch and did nothing that whole block. Lunch hung out with taysia for the whole time and a bit with ryan and derek, i saw them like 10 times today i swear. 4th umm cant remember what i did.... oh yea i finished last guide in planing and then with 30 minutes left i went to go find some people and i saw Kaity wandering the halls kicked out of science for working so we just chilled to rest of the block and then went to my math class to play a game of S.O.S. that we for once finished in 5th block. Yea then I left went to the gym got some sushi and went home to sit at the computer being bored.

Alright so that was my day guys =D

Well that only killed about 5 minutes... lame.

These blogs are boring, theres no point, im bored, i wrote about my day haha.

What else is there to talk about... umm no work until saturday! hooray! thats cool. I want to go to the gym tomorow, i did nothing over the break i just lazed around so may as well start going again.

hmm.. everyone seems depressed lately. Like the world was taken over by a depressing miasma. I don't know, I feel pretty fine, for the most part. When I get sad I just get optimistic, which considering the circumstances, isn't hard. It cheers me up. I guess you could say right now I'm not sad just impatient. So I'm trying to fill the time up with tons of stuff to do. Drumming, song writing, going to the gym, working. My main reason for working isnt even the money, i dont want money now, i want it for the future but i just wanted a job so i could fill some time. Life's kinda funny right now kind of in a twisted sort of way. Kind of like god's testing us all. Seeing how much we can take. I doubt I'm the only one who feels like this, like we're being tryed. I know it'll work out, a week ago... yea. That was as real as it gets, like a wait for me sorta thing, that one moment. No one knows what the fuck im talking about but yea i dont really either. Everything happens for a reason right. Well it sure can be hard sometimes to think of the reasons. But I think I should be doing something right now. Something more than what I'm already doing. Reprioritize a bit. I think I've got it though. Good things come when you least expect them, I'm just gonna stack the deck a bit while i wait.

I've never felt so motivated in my life to do something, make something out of myself. I just need 4 others with the same mindset. Pretty sure I've got 2 already at least, hopefully 4. dont know. I just want to do this enough fucking around, Dylan has the exact same idea as me, almost positive Max does too. So why has nothing happened? I was hoping by now to at least have a set. So I'm done fucking around doing nothing. I'm tired of playing everyday to a track.

Yea and I also want to go to the gym regularily again =P

K well I just wasted about 30 mins sweet now ima go to sleep lol

Holy shit!!!

ok my mind has just been blown, take 15 minutes to read this article

http://beta.cracked.com/article_17019_5-real-life-soldiers-who-make-rambo-look-like-pussy.html

Amazing is it not. Like holy fucking shit!

Now could it be maybe it's not me, YEAH! sleePING! Could it be maybe yoouu awakening?

WORDS SO SECURE SCREAMING LIKE AN ALARM!!

Are you trying to wake me up?

NOW WHAT'S THAT YOU'RE TRYING TO PULL, IS IT MY ARM?!!

I do believe you're trying to wake me up

Now could it be maybe it's not me YEAH!! sleePING!!!

Could it be maybe you awakening?

Sleep this time tonight

Sleepwalk in the light

Sleep this time tonight

(One day we'll)Sleepwalk out of sight

Now here, I, am, but I'm just sleepwalking

Yes here, I, stand

But I guess I'm just sleeptalking for myself

One day this world will see me at the horizon

One day from a distant light

And just before I stand to face my love

I'll turn around and with a smile I'll say my goodbyes

Just one last goodbye... GOODBYE!

Not exactly sure what the last stanza (bridge) is supposed to mean, but this song is the fucking most amazing song ever made. It's a great song to play to, so me dylan and anyone else who wants to are gonna play it for the fun of it because its fucking amazing. Haha love it, listened to it like 30 times. Last night was pretty sweet too. Tonight will probably pretty sweet. Yea, thursday i have nothing friday is gonna be funny and yea sat and sunday i have no clue. Yep

Man, well once again during a break from school, Megan and I start getting really flirty again. Totally wasn't expecting it, last night she called me and invited me to her place to hang out with a few friends tonight. So yea i showed up after work and everyone chilled in the hottub and had fun and stuff and i kinda realized that she was always coming to sit next to me in the hotub. I didn't think it was anything until everyone went back inside and Emma once again was taking up shitloads of room on the couch so Megan would have an excuse to sit really really close to me. Thats when i realized something was up. So yea then for the last half hour or so me and Megan were just cuddling on the couch like we used to. It was nice, definitely took me off guard didnt expect her to come on to me or anything. So yea, the last hour or so was spent with us cuddling listening to tons of people i barely know talk about random shit and put condoms on their hands. Deinitely a trippy night. But i dont know what to do because i dont want to get fucked over again, but then i want really too surprised when she started cuddling with me, since what happened new years eve seemed so weird and just off. So yea apparently she likes me again, and yea i still like her, i only stopped for about 3 weeks in feb. Cuddling with her made me remember the whole winter break and boxing day, which had to have been one of the best days of my life. It was so much fun, shes just too much fun to hang out with. With her i can just forget about everything bad about life because when im with her i only feel happy, nothing else. And she thinks im amazing, like extremely hot, funniest man on earth sorta thing. So i hope this time now that itays out of the way permanently and she doesnt care about him at all this time maybe something can happen with us. I hope it does because if it blows up in my face again... i dont know what i'd do. It would be worse the second time, and the first time was pretty fucking terrible for me. Only time i'd ever cried over a girl before. I dont even know why i feel this way for her, she's attractive but not incredibly, shes isn't even close to perfect yet at the same time she is just perfect. I just hope it all works out because if it doesnt i dont know what i'd do...

Well we've been talking for like the past 2 hours now. It's pretty sweet. Things are pretty much just like they were last break, and i cant stop remembering boxing day, and just like the whole winter break and half on january I always have the same reoccuring dreams of the two of us. Just purely happy dreams that make me want to just sleep all day. Haha hopefully, this time the dreams will be reality.

Omg!! Chris can draw!!!

K so I'm really shocked right now. I'm the guy who always thought I can only draw stick figures and that I'm the worst artist ever. Well as seen above I'm pretty decent considering I just started drawing yesterday and this is the first drawing I've done of a picture off the internet. Never done that ever before in my life. I have to say I'm dumbfounded and extremely proud of myself for actually drawing that. Who knew I could draw? I have to say I love my new found skill, I've always wanted to be able to draw and i guess i never really tried until now and I have to say it's soooo much fun. I'll probably be spending a lot of time now drawing either my own creations or other replicating others. Like Inuyasha ^_^

I just decided to share that with you because i bet you'll all be as surprised as I am. ^_^

This was gonna be a comment on Mark's post but yea it was so big i decided to make it into a blogpost.

The title says it all. By the way sorry for catching the shuttle without you today Mark =(

Hmm... faces look retarded in this thing.

Yea, i agree with Max; you shouldn't be so quick to give up. You might just have to give it some time to let her get over Jeremy. But as far as Jeremy goes no ones very happy with him right now.

Everyone hates how the reason he dumped Cassidy was so that he could cheat on her if he ever felt like. They act exactly the same as they did a couple months ago. It's annoying how he's made out to be such a ladies man even though all he is is desperate. Almost any guy can get a girlfriend like Jeremy can but most of us have the dignity not to ask out any and every girl that so much as smiles at us or shows the slightest interest in us. Funny thing is that actually Jeremy isn't very smooth with the ladies at all. He's liked by about as many people as any other guy I can think of is, probably less girls like him than most other guys do actually. He just brags about every girl that likes him and stretches the truth. Actually as far as women go I feel bad for him. The only girlfriend he's kept for more than 1 week is Cassidy. Girls definitely aren't his strong point in life because he's (apparently) had 20 girlfriends and everysingle one but Cass dumped him the first week.

I feel bad for Kellen because everytime he gets any time with Cass Jeremy jumps beside her and practically starts making out with her and Kellen has always liked Cassidy more than Jeremy ever has. Kellen has always cared about her, one thing I'm sure Jeremy never put much thought into. Another thing he's done that Dylan, Max and I.. even Matt are pissed at him for is being a good for nothing bassist that hasnt shown up to a single practice. He gets one final chance to prove his worth thursday and if he's not there or if he sucks at the bass (one of those things is bound to happen) he's out. No more of that bullshit. That's the thing I'm pissed at him for right now, everything else with the girls and stuff is just Jeremy, he'll always be like that.

Don't get me wrong Jeremy's one of my best friends and he's tons of fun to hang out with and stuff but yea as far as women, morales and showing up to practice goes he's a fail and nobody agrees with him in those areas.

Well that was all gonna end up being a comment on Mark's last post but yea i figured I may as well turn it into my first post in like a month. To tell say the truth I forgot about this site. Probably because I can never think of anything to write about. Ok, well that's a lie. I can think of things but I don't bother writing most of it because I'm sure most people wouldn't want to spend the time reading it. Everybodies expressed their disinterest in my blog anyways. So if I ever have anything to say I say it out loud to people that care to listen.

I've hit that stage in my life where nothing seems to matter anymore. I guess it's only natural everyone goes through it. My parents did and my children will also. Nothing's so special anymore Christmas, Birthdays, holidays in general. All the childhood joys are no longer fulfilling and I havent hit the age where other things are exciting, like travelling the world, going to college, really starting my life, getting married and all tha stuff.

Lately I've just been doing stuff to try and fill the time. The one thing I look forward to now the most is playing music. Even if it's only me alone playing to a track, it's still amazing. It's a let down when Jeremy doesnt show up and he probably cant even play. I was hoping we'd actually have a bassist and a full band that with alot of hard work we could get going. Well now we need a bassist, big let down. Guess we're not going to be performing all too soon.

Whatever in this time when I'm not actually playing with my band I can write some music that we can use some of it later in future originals. I guess I can't really complain though, as a drummer I'm actually fairly renowned, I'm known as the best drummer at thomas haney by everyone who goes there and in the small music crowd at Pitt I'm known as a damn good drummer, best at Pitt easily. At least thss also has Will and that other guy who are also pretty good. I have Gary's praise he considers me one of the best drummers he's ever taught and says I have amazing potential, the potential to become as him in many many years but eventually reach his current level. So that's awesome that he thinks so highly of me as a student.

I just want to perform though so more people can see how great my band will be, once we find a bassist and get our shit together. We have the potential to be great just not the best conditions. shitty amps and such, and no bassist. unless jeremy is amazing and will show up to all our next practices...

That ends a long post lol, i have nothing else to say on those 2 subjects.