Stillborn pride - let me hide!

Once more I've stepped across the line,
Repeating to myself that everything is fine.

Once more I'm shipwrecked far from shore.
This time the war and blood and gore are
Mine. Approaching the end, thinking it's all
Pretend. Then - clarity, so close to me. Although
I knew I killed me to I came back to life.
The key is flexibility. Guard your strenghts
ANd drown the rest: out of mind, out of sight.

The chains on my wings ... still tight but
Loosening. The age of wondering led me to a
Place never revisited again.

Stillborn pride - Spare my mind!

Don't regret all of your past - you can't
Change. Tears dry but they're never your last -
That won't change. The first stone has just
Been cast - Show restraing.

You can't take all my apathy.
You can't take such a tragedy.
You can't brake all my fallacies.

Let serendipity.

Okay - so things don't always go your
Way. We may see things for what they
are someday.

So things don't always go your
Way. See things for what they
are today

I'm in love with the agonist such an amazing band, with female vocals too. Kinda like nightwish and lacuna coil with more of a kick. I love them.

Walking the elysian fields
From the tree the snake watches you
Can you feel your dying heart
It can no longer stand the temptation

Wipe out the flashbacks
From the depths of my caved in heart
Trample my utopia
Memories force my mind to tear apart

We both ate from the serpent’s tree
I cannot blame us for burning all the bridges
Close that coffin, strike the last nail
And tell me why is my soul this frail

You said you`d be far away
But so is the sun and it still burns
You promised time would heal our wounds
But the scars will always remind us

Endless struggle with my mind ghost
It haunts my every step, my every thought.
This body is nothing but a shell
Just to enhance my never-ending nightmare

You said you`d be far away
But so is the sun and it still burns
You promised time would heal our wounds
But the scars will always remind us

You said you`d be far away
But so is the sun and it still burns
You promised time would heal our wounds
But the scars will always remind us


And of course Sonic Syndicate. Fucking godly, and amazing live performances. Apparently the screamer and the 2 guitarists are all brothers too, which is pretty intense. Tonight was interesting, definitely strange and i dont know kinda nice. I should probably sleep soon though. Ugh why is it sunday already. I can't wait to play the first show on friday though. With at least 2 originals. It's gonna be pretty great. Get a pretty good audience too, at least everyone who matters would be nice. but of course the bigger the crowd the better Well thats it for now i guess ill sleep. lol first post in like a month. totally forgot about the site

ugh im sick and extremely bored. I pretty much spent all of today and yesterday in bed which was fucking lame, but im better today than yesterday, hopefully be at school tomorow. I hate it, you're always tired when you're sick, ive been awake for like 5 hours after 15 hours of sleep and im dead tired and all i did was sit in a chair all day. bleh. Well yea I'll probs be at school tomorow cause i need to do some work, even though i wont do any tomorow but ill do some at home. I'll just end up going to rockschool and then skipping gym and then i dont know go to the gym or something haha. Well that killed like 5 minutes XP.

My eyes roll back into my head,
i'm trying to keep my head on straight to
understand. Remember what he said,
"Yes, I do believe".
A smile reached the surface.

Free me. You have freed me,
I will not suffer anymore,
Suffer anymore. I'm alive.

I'm scared stiff, i'm shaking in my boots.
When you come face to face with the reason
you exsist. I'm holding on to truth,
and living like a king. I'm tired now,
somehow I will survive. I can't remember
how it feels to be alright.

By grace, you have freed me, I will not
suffer anymore, I will not suffer anymore,
suffer anymore. I'm alive

Fucking amazing song, i love it. Everything by them is good they are amazing. Usually Christian rock/metal is the best it's just hard to find the good ones.

Right now im so bored and my throat feels like its gonna explode, fucking blows.

I wake up every morning bright and early roll out of bed but I'm never quite alone, their hunger for the living helps them hunt it with the greatest of ease. And I don't understand why they justify iniquity. But what if I changed the signs would you even take notice? Why is there no reason that time and time again you'll think about yourself before you think about me? I sit in traffic every morning just as i arrive I'm slaving to the grind and punch through the wall as I break my fist. All alone and I can't fell no pain, only strain. Enjoy the sights, I feel alive, just relaxing here feels alright with the warming memory of the one last kiss.

I managed to make a somewhat understandable paragraph out of about 10 different song lyrics!

But yea if you can make it out that a basic version of how I feel, presented in the form of lyrics which are the biggest outlet of feelings ever. I figured it'd be more interesting than just writing them out like everyone else. That is mainly the only thing we use the blogs for lol.

Well our first ever band practice was actually amazing. Lay Down sounds great and we pretty much wrote a whole original in about 1 hour, so that was definitely a win. The original sounds amazing too, its just so fucking awesome. Everyone loves it too it's so sweet. So yea if we keep up like this we'll have probably 2-3 orginals and 4 or so good covers in a month and we'll start playing some shows!!! We already have that one song as an original, and unfinished one that needs touch ups and a hilarious extremely happy riff dylan wrote that we thought would actually make an incredible screamo chorus. So there that's 3 originals to be touched up and need vocals. So everyone was hoping to get the song we wrote last practice finished and have a rough first version demo sort of thing recorded during the week through an actually audio jack so we can get some good quality recordings. But yea hopefully we'll be playing our first show in about a month and if all of our songs sound as awesome as this one we'll be playing big shows fast!

Yea, well I've come to the same conclusion as everyone else. There's really nothing left to say on these things. Well i guess i could talk about my day haha. Well i woke up and had some life cereal, two bowls. Showed up at school knowing that Max and Mark were bound to skip after only one day back from the break. They did. So yea I spent the first 2 blocks and finished planning and hung out with Megan. She's a pretty depressing person right now, not happy with losing Itay. So i pretty much just talked to Erin and Kitty 2nd block. Her name is actually Kitty, it's pretty sweet and shes really into art and music so she's my asian buddy now lol. 3rd block was lame with mcilroy, hung out with mitch and did nothing that whole block. Lunch hung out with taysia for the whole time and a bit with ryan and derek, i saw them like 10 times today i swear. 4th umm cant remember what i did.... oh yea i finished last guide in planing and then with 30 minutes left i went to go find some people and i saw Kaity wandering the halls kicked out of science for working so we just chilled to rest of the block and then went to my math class to play a game of S.O.S. that we for once finished in 5th block. Yea then I left went to the gym got some sushi and went home to sit at the computer being bored.

Alright so that was my day guys =D

Well that only killed about 5 minutes... lame.

These blogs are boring, theres no point, im bored, i wrote about my day haha.

What else is there to talk about... umm no work until saturday! hooray! thats cool. I want to go to the gym tomorow, i did nothing over the break i just lazed around so may as well start going again.

hmm.. everyone seems depressed lately. Like the world was taken over by a depressing miasma. I don't know, I feel pretty fine, for the most part. When I get sad I just get optimistic, which considering the circumstances, isn't hard. It cheers me up. I guess you could say right now I'm not sad just impatient. So I'm trying to fill the time up with tons of stuff to do. Drumming, song writing, going to the gym, working. My main reason for working isnt even the money, i dont want money now, i want it for the future but i just wanted a job so i could fill some time. Life's kinda funny right now kind of in a twisted sort of way. Kind of like god's testing us all. Seeing how much we can take. I doubt I'm the only one who feels like this, like we're being tryed. I know it'll work out, a week ago... yea. That was as real as it gets, like a wait for me sorta thing, that one moment. No one knows what the fuck im talking about but yea i dont really either. Everything happens for a reason right. Well it sure can be hard sometimes to think of the reasons. But I think I should be doing something right now. Something more than what I'm already doing. Reprioritize a bit. I think I've got it though. Good things come when you least expect them, I'm just gonna stack the deck a bit while i wait.

I've never felt so motivated in my life to do something, make something out of myself. I just need 4 others with the same mindset. Pretty sure I've got 2 already at least, hopefully 4. dont know. I just want to do this enough fucking around, Dylan has the exact same idea as me, almost positive Max does too. So why has nothing happened? I was hoping by now to at least have a set. So I'm done fucking around doing nothing. I'm tired of playing everyday to a track.

Yea and I also want to go to the gym regularily again =P

K well I just wasted about 30 mins sweet now ima go to sleep lol

Holy shit!!!

ok my mind has just been blown, take 15 minutes to read this article

http://beta.cracked.com/article_17019_5-real-life-soldiers-who-make-rambo-look-like-pussy.html

Amazing is it not. Like holy fucking shit!

Now could it be maybe it's not me, YEAH! sleePING! Could it be maybe yoouu awakening?

WORDS SO SECURE SCREAMING LIKE AN ALARM!!

Are you trying to wake me up?

NOW WHAT'S THAT YOU'RE TRYING TO PULL, IS IT MY ARM?!!

I do believe you're trying to wake me up

Now could it be maybe it's not me YEAH!! sleePING!!!

Could it be maybe you awakening?

Sleep this time tonight

Sleepwalk in the light

Sleep this time tonight

(One day we'll)Sleepwalk out of sight

Now here, I, am, but I'm just sleepwalking

Yes here, I, stand

But I guess I'm just sleeptalking for myself

One day this world will see me at the horizon

One day from a distant light

And just before I stand to face my love

I'll turn around and with a smile I'll say my goodbyes

Just one last goodbye... GOODBYE!

Not exactly sure what the last stanza (bridge) is supposed to mean, but this song is the fucking most amazing song ever made. It's a great song to play to, so me dylan and anyone else who wants to are gonna play it for the fun of it because its fucking amazing. Haha love it, listened to it like 30 times. Last night was pretty sweet too. Tonight will probably pretty sweet. Yea, thursday i have nothing friday is gonna be funny and yea sat and sunday i have no clue. Yep